A small old house with a small front yard just large enough for two graves. On one side was my Father's Father's grave who had died 50 years before I was born. On the other side was my Father's Sister's grave who died around 10 years ago. I had only met her a couple of times when she was very old. She looked like a female version of my Father. Separating the two graves was a path leading to the front door of the house.
For some reason not in our control the house had to go and we had to move the graves. My Father who was standing with me had died 15 years ago. He made me feel some comfort as he always had despite this emotional task that we must undertake. Which involved me digging up his Father followed by his Sister.
I moved the flat smooth stones above my Grandfather's grave with a long handled spade. Carefully sliding the spade under the stones I lifted the stones exposing his bones like lifting an old slab exposing ant tunnels beneath.
I slid the spade under his skull and gently lifted it and placed it next the grave. Next was he rib cage and spine. I slid he spade under and lifted the bones and placed them next the skull. I was surprised by the stench and the mass of maggots squirming in his still decomposing back part of his chest.
I felt that I was being a little disrespectful by being slightly repulsed by the smell. I was also surprised that his body was still decomposing after so long.
I was then awoken by a noise.
The dream didn't feel like a nightmare. As always I feel comfort to dream of my Father. I also had a nice feeling about dreaming of my Grandfather who I had never met but still admire even though I know almost nothing about him.
I believe the dream was about me moving on in my life. The spade related to some gardening I had done at my house the day before to get it ready for sale. The still decomposing body related to the unpleasantness that still needs to be gone through before moving on and that I should not let that unpleasantness spoil my appreciation of what has already been a good life.
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wow that was a very vivid dream.
ReplyDeletei like how you were able to make sense of it- I always remember my many dreams but don't always know what they mean probably cos they can be incredibly wacky alice in wonderland type imaginary things!
I do remember meeting a unicorn, a leprachaun and a bunyip in a dream before(not all in the same dream)- pretty cool :) I guess that is why they call some people "Dreamers" hehe.
Perhaps I need to start keeping a dream diary and then take it to someone that can interpret them- Evil Shannanigans seems to be pretty talented in this respect actually.
p.s check out if you can on sbs 10pm wednesday nights LONG WAY DOWN - ewan mcgregor's motorcycle adventures through africa-very cool!
Alice in Wonderland is another book I am reading my daughter at the moment. Definately wacky. It is pretty long and heavy so we take breaks with other books. Like Milo and Otis:)
ReplyDeleteYour dreams sounds very nice. I also know about unicorns from reading books to my daughter. Recently I read her a book about the history of unicorns. Pretty cool.
I have the DVD of the Long Way Down and the Long Way Round. But will watch again on TV if I get the chance.
Tommorow morning I'm flying up to Karratha to visit some family with my kids. Should be sunny and warm which will be great.
hehe *envy* I've always been curious about the place after a backpacker friend of mine kept going on about it...if you're a local of there that makes me even more curious!
ReplyDeleteps were you always an older soul from childhood or did you become one from life circumstances? this is just a question i'm pondering a lot lately...
Hey zhen just got back from Karratha yesterday. I did'nt take my computer with me and so was computerless for awhile.
ReplyDeleteI'm not a local my sister moved up there a few years ago and I have visited her a few times. The wide open desert spaces and islands are magical and the weather is so nice in winter.
I was pondering a similar idea about my soul or spirit on the plane home yesterday and will write a post about my thoughts. I feel that my soul has been the same since childhood but I have only become concious of the soul concept more recently. Party because of life circumstances and also because I have had more time to myself to contemplate these things and discover myself as an individual.
How do you feel about your old soul?
it sounds like an oasis! i remember visiting the desert for the first time...and floating in an inner tube in the middle of winter in a thermal spring! *magical alright!
ReplyDeletecomputer free is a good way to be - we're all too connected to our modems these days, lol.
i think i am the same, been "old" since a child but only became aware of the soul concept in recent years when it dawned on me i felt older and wiser than my parents(!), well at least knew/was aware of things i expected they should know being "truly" old so then i thought this was weird and started googling and found another old soul who explained some things to me-michaelteachings site makes for an interesting read.
i think you hit the nail on the head when you said you finally have time to self to reflect and discover self as an individual...the typical experience of marrying & merging young i guess.